Friday, 21 November 2008
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What is my ultimate desire in life?
To find a place where I belong.
It’s not here. I never will belong here. Too many things don’t make sense…
I will never understand why people like parties, or crowds, or will endure sleep deprivation while working on homecoming festivities, such as decorating a hallway which will be torn down the next morning. I will never understand the purpose of spectator sports, or rap, or why people watch shows such as “Disney Channel”. (Perhaps it’s their escapism, much as music is mine?) I will never understand why people attempt to beat the system, instead of working to achieve what they desire. I don’t get it. None of it.
But frankly, I see this as an impossible task.
I doubt that people will ever understand me. I don’t think that they will understand my ‘pro-life’ ideals, or why I am willing to spend five dollars on a cup of coffee. I don’t believe that anybody will ever understand the insecurities which dwell in me, or why there are scars upon my ankles. Nobody will understand how much it scares me that I continue to debate within myself whether of not religion is moral. Nobody will understand how deeply I want to love life, yet how I continue to fail in this regard…
“To be great is to be misunderstood…”---Emerson
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Comments (2)
Wow. That is likely the deepest thing I've read in a very very very long time.
agreeing with Dare2BDiferentt this post by far is the deepest entry I have read in a really long time and was very insightful to my own dilemmas. I doubt people will ever be able to understand anyone. From their choices to their ideals, and this is because each person has their own opinion and many are afraid to step outside of themselves to listen. Which makes it an impossible task.
but sure enough you will find where you belong.
as we all do..eventually.